Michael Jackson

Aright seriously now, what kinda asshole waits until their son is dead to talk about him really? Joe Jackson did an interview denying everything that Michael Jackson talked about as far as the abuse goes and stuff. He thinks that his kids turned out fine and that he didnt do anything wrong about how he raised them because they didnt end up in prison or dead or on the streets. What the hell Joe....have you taken a look at your children and yourself lately? You obviously didnt do something right. Michael was warped and had some serious issues. Your other children are weird and warped also. You aparently didnt do something right. Beating your children over shit as small as them messing up a dance move is not ok. Treating them like slaves and making them miss out on their childhood so you can live out your dreams through them is not ok. Your children have more problems thanks to you than anybody else in America do. I just cant beleive that you would pretty much call your son a lier and dismiss what he said, after he was dead. Shows what kinda man you are really, you wait until hes dead and cant take up for himself to run your damn mouth. You are a sorry excuse for a father truely! You should be ashamed of yourself!

Obamas recent speach...awesome!

Wow i am so0o surprised by the speach that Obama gave just recently to the NAACP! He talked about racial equality and discrimination. But what was so great about it was that he wasnt blaming it on the white people. You have no idea how great that makes me feel to here a black man who isnt blaming everything on white people. He talked about it happening between all races. He talked about taking responsibility for our own actions and how our destiny isnt made for us. That we make our own destiny. He said it is not prejudice or discrimination that presents the greatest obstacles for blacks, but rather structural inequities_ in areas such as education and health care. Still, though, he said discrimination persists — and not just for blacks — and he chided those who may contend otherwise. Its nice to know that he acknowledges all races and doesnt just cater to one! I liked how he encouraged the NAACP to have other role models other than rappers or sports stars. But i must say that should go for everybody. He is all about education and talks about how you decide your future and not others. I also liked how he shared a little bit about himself and how he grew up with a single mother with hardly any money. And he went on to explain how he could have turned the wrong way but he chose to do something about his life. There might be hope for us yet. Its just nice for him to be so honest and encouraging. He said that the NAACP may want to broading their spectrum lol...that means not just associating with your own kind but letting others in to. I think thats a wonderful idea. Communication and an open mind can lead to great things, thanks for the great speach Obama!!!!

Update....life as I know it

Ok so0o its been a long ass time since i've written a blog. Well alot has happened in that time frame. I've been working as a cashier for almost a year and I recently bought a new truck almost 2 monthes ago. Me and my boyfriend are just really good friends now for the most part. My son will be starting pre~kay soon and i have a new baby neice. I've also been having some health problems with my stomach and acid reflux. I had medicaid but they all of a sudden terminated it. When i called to see what was up they told me i never had it and wasnt approved. They said i make to much money, which i find hilarious. You know considering i only make around 300 maybe 450 a month. that barely covers my truck payment and gas. So pretty much i have to be a low life peace of project trash with no job and 7 kids and black to get any benifits. They dont seem to like helping us hard working citizens who are struggling. What a shame.....what is America coming to. I miss the days when all of our tax dollars didnt go to welfare and the projects, and we had low gas prices. I miss the days when we didnt cater to the blacks and we were all pretty much treated the same no matter what color we were. I miss the days when people actually worked for what they had and the working people got a little help from time to time. todays people are just goin rotten so it seems. What the hell happened seriously?

STRESS!!!

Man I tell you what, this has been one hell of a few monthes. You know i'm not racest or anything but I have to throw this out there. Black people talk about how they dont have equality but yet they get all these benefits like medical insurance, foodstamps and welfare like its nothing. I'm white and i cant hardly get shit. Its way harder for me as a white girl to get anything literally. I think its great that black people can get assistance and stuff but damn why cant i? Its just not fair. It has taken me three monthes to get foodstamps and medicaid and I actually really need it. Its crazy how the system works. But atleast now i'm able to get my health issues taken care of. I have had some really bad throat problems. My tonsels have lumps on them and have been seriously swollen and not to mention the bumps on the back of my throat. I went to the hospital finally last night and sat for 5 hours cuz i couldnt hardly swollow and it was hurting so bad. Come to find out I just had a severe case of sinusitus and they gave me an antibiotic YAY! Now hopefully it will all go away. Now I just have to get my stomach issues taken care of and I'll be good to go.

decisions....decisions

Well I've decided to wait and not move in with my boyfriend. Hes not to happy about it and i cant say i blame him. Considering I just sudden;y changed my mind. I'm sure he'll get over it though. I just dont see the point in rushing to move in when we've only been back together for like 4 monthes. I think its best to take our time and not move so fast. I've seen to many friends move way to fast with a relationship in the past and it just screwed things up. I've done it in the past and it had nothing but a negative result. If he really wants to be with me then he can wait to have a place with me. But on a lighter note my job has been goinb pretty good except for the fact I dont get as many hours as i would like. Hopefully that will all change soon though. I just know that 20 hours a week isnt enough for me thats for sure. I'm trying to decide if i want to stay at the store i'm at or transfer. I like the people i'm working with but the hours are just messed up and from what i've heard the store that i'm at is pretty stingy when it comes to getting raises. I guess we will see.

Chris Brown assault

Have any of you heard about what happened the night before the oscars between Chris Brown and Rihanna? Well they were in their car argueing and he got a little to heated and assaulted her. She ended up with a bloody nose, Busted lip, and facial bruising. C'mon now thats just messed up. How can you hit a woman and knowing its wrong? I was a big fan of Chris Brown, but after he did that I just lost total respect for him. And man did you hear what some people were actually saying? There were actually people blaming everyting on Rihanna like its all her fault. They were saying that she possibly pravoked him. Well It doesnt matter what she said or did, its still no excuse for hitting a woman! I guess it doesnt matter blame who you want because hes still getting charged for domestic violence, and hes still losing his endorsements. They just took his music off the radio and the commercial advertisements that he did off tv. Thats what you get for being a wife beater. Well I cant be to judgemental because afterall its not my place and certainly not my relationship. I just hope he learned his lesson and doesnt do it again. Maybe anger management would do him some good.

The Bachelor

I was watching the view this morning and they were talking about one of the silliest shows on tv, the bachelor. To me that show is just redicolous. They showed a clip of the show where several of the women would be on a private date with him, and they were starting to tell him how they were falling in love with him and confessing their love for him. When they would start that crap he would just start to kiss them so he didnt have to reply back to them. How crazy is that lol. I just think that this is one of the stupid reality shows. These girls aren't sane or very smart. How do you expect to get picked if your telling the dude that your in love with him when you just met him a week ago and have only really talked to him maybe 2 to 4 times lol. Either these girls have issues or they are on the show just to get air time on tv. It just seems so0o fake at times to. I dont think I could ever bring myself to even try to get on a show like that, and if I were ever stupid enough to go on that show i doubt i would be falling in love with anybody after 5 seconds lol. I dont know, it just seems to be a waist of tv space but thats just my opinion.

Michael Phelps!

As you all know, Michael Phelps got caught smoking a lil gaunja. Oh my goodness the world is going to end cuz the famous Phelps actually relaxed and smoked a lil green on his own time haha. Come on everybody give the boy a break and stop dissing him. I mean do you know how many people in america smoke pot? There are people in other sports who smoke and people in the medical field who smoke. And I cant count how many celebrities who have come out and are open about smoking. Theres a magazine cover that Jonny Depp did with him on the cover smoking. And Heath ledger was an open pot smoker to. I dont see you dissing him to. Its rediculous. I know i havent met one person in the past year that didnt smoke and that includes successful people who make the big bucks. Not naming any names cuz i sure wouldnt want them to burn for it so to speak. All i'm saying is Michael Phelps works his ass off year round and goes to the olympics and wins a bunch of gold medals and breaks a lot of records. I think he deserves a little bit of time to himself to do what he wants. It could always be worse. Atleast he wasnt doin crack or cocaine or something to that effect. Its pretty messed up that somebody even took that pic and showed it to anybody. Now granite, he should have been more careful about who was around him and who had a camera. Let the boy have some privacy. People can be so0o greedy. I wonder how much he got paid for that pic anyway? Anywho i'll wrap this up and just say, I still love you Michael Phelps, you the shit and so what if you smoked a lil gaunja. We all do at one point in our life for the most part. ROCK ON!

Finally I found a job!!!

So I have been looking for a job for quite some time now and havent had any luck. Well my good friend Marybeth talked me into going up to her work and filling out an application. I filled it out thinking i would have no luck becauseI have applied there before. Well I guess I was wrong afterall. I lucked out and got a callback from them but from another location. I went in for my first interview the other day and did my drug screening. Everything went well and I went back for another interview today and I got the job hehe. Now all i'm waiting for is my employee number so I can start training, YAY ME hehe! Its not the best or the worst job in the world but its a job for now and thats all that matters. I'm goin to be able to do more things now that i'm working again. Thats so0o much better than babysitting all the time for close to no money. Looks like me and my girl will be going on our beach trip this summer afterall.

A New Behinning!!!

Today was the inauguration of president elect Obama. Today is the beginning of a new day. We have officially made history. Its great to know that we have made such an improvement in america, and we are so much closer to racial equality. It was crazy awesome how many people showed up in the mall area for the inauguration. In 2005 there was 400,000. Today in 2009 there were an estimated amount of 1,400,000 people there. And they have over 7,000 troops there also. There haveing the parade right now and the streets are covered in thousands of excited fans. They said that the limos are only going 2 1/2 miles an hour. All i know is somebody is going to have to use the bathroom by the time the parade ends lol. Before the parade there was the luncheon they had. During the luncheon something scary happened. Senater Ted Kenedy was there and had a seizure. They ended up having to transport him to the hospital. They also announced today that Ted Kenedy was battleing a brain tumor. Its just amazing that he even made it to the luncheon. Hes a fighter thats for sure! Congratulations to our new president, Obama! And our prayers go out to Ted Kenedy!

Today is a new day!!!

Job Market...what the hell!

Ok so0o I have to voice my frustraition with the economy. I dont know about you but its getting really old. Used to I never had a problem keeping atleast some money in my pockets so i could breathe, but now I cant even find a job. Its very irritating. I would love to havbe ajob right now, but I honestly cant think of anywhere that would be hiring. Not to mention the people that do have jobs are having a hard time keeping them. I was working as a hostess in Smokey Bones and eventually me and the manager got into it about me not getting any hours in and him screwing with my schedule. It seems to be happening to everyone. I've been doin lil odd jobs here and there from time to time. Like babysitting and keeping my parents house clean, not to mention the holiday money that i got. I want a real job damnit. I have been planning to go to florida for 3 nights in may, and as you all know its best to book a room by the end of february so the rates are affordable and theres actually a room available. So I am determined to get my break one way or another. Hopefully there will be a turn around in the job market really soon, cuz I dont know how much more I can take of this stupidly horrible economy!

Obama

I heard the funniest thing on several talk shows. Everybody has been talking about it lately. Obama is getting a one of a kind limo, especially made for Obama. Ok so0o your talking about saving money and helping the poor but yet theres being tons of money spent on a limo you dont really need thats just for you. Whats wrong with the limo that the whitehouse has now? I find it hilarious that all this money is being spent on limos, private jets, and wardrobe just for one person, and yet that money could be goin to more important things. Lets see like oh I dont kno....the charities that need it, or to businesses, or people who need jobs or health insurance. Well now you see what your tax payers money is goin to.....limos, private jets, personal wardrobes, lazy ghetto people in the projects and more. As if this country isnt broke enough as it is. Lets just hope that the money will be put to good use very soon!

DO YOU EVER JUST FEEL.....

Do you ever feel like your life has no meaning at all, like its not going anywhere or getting better or worse? Do you ever feel like you will never amount to anything or never figure out what exactly you want to be in life. Well I do, I have felt like that for a while. My life makes no since and has no certain direction. I know what I like to do or what makes me happy, but I always find myself doing the exact opposite. You know the expression, everybody was put on this earth for a reason? Well I beleive its true i just wish I knew what I was here for. I know life would make more since and probably be much better. It seems that nowadays people have the hardest times figuring out what they want to do for the rest of their lives or who they should be with. You just kinda get confused and twisted. Have you ever just felt like nothing goes right, like you have no luck or direction? Like everything just seems so0o difficult, and the smallest things seem the hardest? For example....getting your G.E.D. i can pass everything on that test but the math. Heres another example, you care about somebody more than anything and you feel like you should be with them but everybody around seems to think otherwise, like they know best or something so it makes it hard to decide wheather to stay with them or not. I know life is suppose to get better and your suppose to find your calling and your true meaning of what your life is about. But where to start, that is the

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Well I must say I had a pretty good christmas. We celebrated christmas on christmas eve with the kids and my siblings and parents. It was very fun surprisingly. I definitely ate way to much food. My son Cowen loved All his gifts. Hes been playing with them non~stop. And he got some really cute outfits to. I certainly got some really good gifts this year myself. I love everyone of them. Thanks to my family for the gifts and my sons gifts. They were really nice. Today me and my sister and my son are going to do christmas with my aunt and her new hubby, and my maw~maw and my cousins. Now hopefully my paw~paw will be back in town so we can see him to. Well Merry Christnas to everyone!

MEN just arent real MEN anymore!

Do you ever feel like you will be single and alone forever, like there isnt a right guy for you? You know its crazy, the divorce rate is so0o high nowadays. Its nothing like it used to be. I mean whats up with that? Men arent real men like they were in the golden days. They dont respect and put their women on a pedistal anymore. Not to mention most of them have no class or morals. Whatever happened to being faithful to your significant other? Whatever happened to respecting your lady and being a true couple. I have yet to meet a real man of my generation. In my generation all you have is bums, thugs, drug addicts, and cheaters. I've dated one or two from each categorey. The few good ones that you would consider to be real are usually gay, or you come to find out that they werent all that perfect to begin with. They end up being nutzo. I'm bout ready to just give up and just be single for the rest of my life. All i really need is my son. I fully intend on showing him the decent way of living and how to treat a woman. I wish i could go back in time and snag me a real man and bring him back to 2008. That would be wonderful wouldnt it! I see all these old couples from the golden ages who have been together for 40 years and they couldnt be happier. they are still in love and fully intend on staying that way. I just think that is awesome. It would be great to have somebody you actually spend the rest of your life with. Someone once told me if you even consider divorce then you will get divorced. If divorce isnt an option then you will forever be together. I'm a firm beleiver in that. Everbody needs to keep that in mind and maybe there would be a lower divorce rate. Instead of cheating communicate with your significant other and fix the problem. instead of getting violent go out for a drive. Instead of doin drugs, play video games, instead of sleeping all day get a job. You may find if you do those things then maybe just maybe you will have a successful relationship.

Crazy News about Ex Queen of POP!

Ok so0o0o heres something funny. Have you guys heard whats been going on with Madonna lately? So we already knew she was a little weird, but who would have thought she was just crazy, ungrateful, and judgemental.
Not to long ago she was performing at a concert and she saw a couple of her fans sit down in their seats to rest for a min. She freaked out and asked them why they were sitting down, that this isnt a Barbara Striseand concert. c'mon Madonna, I mean really what has Barbara done to you lately? Oh and another thing Madonna....you getting paid millions to intertain us fans, u cater to us, its not the other way around. Just remember that.
There was another incident where she yelled out (F) you Sara Payland. Ok so you dont like Sara, but why do you have to be so0o rude and disrespectful to her. She hasnt done anything to you Madonna. She also called Sara a F~ing Bitch.
Wow and heres something else thats crazy, she kicked Britney Spears off of her tour because she refused to practice cabolla. Seriously Madonna, you need to get off your high horse. Not everybody has the same religion so you shouldnt judge Britney cuz of that. In fact most celebrities dont do cabolla lol. And another thing Why would you kick somebody off your tour thats making you money. Have you not noticed that your 50 years old and your still stuck in the dang 80's and you barley have a career. You need Britney more than she needs you. Just remember every year your recored sales go down and the demand for Madonna goes down. Like I said your 50 and you have yet to upgrade your music.
And people wonder why she cant keep a husband lol, shes crazy and she thinks shes god. Well after all this happened and she noticed that people werent taking to kindly to her behavior, she all of a sudden wanted to befriend Brittney Spears again. It just shows that nobody likes a conceited and ignorant person. Well newho I thought I'd share this news with you guys for some amusement. Enjoy, I sure did!!!

Gay Rights

So0o California is banning Gay/Lesbian marriage. Whats up with that? What happened to America being the place you go to for freedom? Before you know it we will have tracking devices put into our boddies and we wont be aloud to do anything. What happened to personal freedom to choose what you want to do and what makes you happy? Yes i'm a christian, but I personal beleive you cant help who you fall in love with. I also dont think that God will condemn you for being with the person who makes you happy and whom your in love with. They've also banned Gay/Lesbian couples from adopting children also. Why deny a child of having a perfectly decent home with decent people just because they have same sex marriages. Not every gay person is a pervert or a bad influence. I think that anybody and everybody who can provide a good home in a heathy environment surrounded by good people should be aloud to adopt regardless of your sexual orientation. I mean really now, do you think you can stop people from growing up and being gay by keeping them away from gay people lol? Well i have news for you America, you arent influenced to be the way you are. You are born that way. And nobody should be judged for it. Only god can judge, so how dare you try to be god. Give a child a home, give a child a chance to be happy! Let the Gay/Lesbian community get married. They want to be married for teh same reason straight people do. They want to spend the rest of their lives with somebody they love. They want personal right of their children and property if the significant other passes away. We as americans want to be treated as equals!!!! What do you think? Please tell me i'm not the only one with these opinions and views! Come people enough of the judgement and unfair laws. Lets have equality!